live fast die fun

the leading women in my secondary skool lifes *

v,j,c,g,j,r,f

each of them mean lots to me

each of them makes me hate them

each of them i love

each of them changes

some can be so kind

some has done so much for me

some i miss

some might be my downfall oneday

this 4 years

i found one that makes me love

i found one that makes me smile

i found one that says lol too much

i found one that i can understand

i found one that i can share my crap with

i found one that was my first but wasnt true

i found one that said so much to that made me wonder

but i see women like ive never seen them

i might never see them again

but i wont forget them

they mean alot

i hope they know me

i hope for more hopes

i hope to be loved

i hope im not hoping for too much

but i know they have hearts but where did the hearts go?

everyone was heartache at sometime

everyone made me smile

everyone is special but i have favourites

but the favourites dont have me

males are bastards

can i be a female?

i wonder how would i feel on the verge of death

will i still be thinking about these 7 ladies?

i might be looking at the mirror

old man loose skin loose balls

and everything different

but nothing might be the same

i just hope this com stays because

i have the most important conversation

it means alot to me

even if we didnt argue i still hate it that u dont believe so much

and so much i still cant understand

its exactly 00:00 now the middle of two days

friday and saturday

i wonder in the important of meaning ful times in my life

will i still think of this moment

or will i be a casanova?

i wont want to be one

but theres always a time when i feel i hate women so much

i want revenge but i still got love and i know there are good women i love

but its hard

nothing is easy

the only woman keeping me alive now

is sidney sheldon

thanks woman i love the stories

but i think im sick of stories

god sort my life please

i wished i understood everythingbut what the fuck for when theres nothing i can do

maybe just pray

yea

i love praying i feel safe

its like locked somewhere no one can find me

just me

i will die alone

god give me fun

i wish i can have a blog with no posts

and a mind like a library full of memories

i wont need a blog only until just before i die

i will say thanks to everyone in my life

hah

take my life