today isnt a better day,nothing is better,im more afraid,i feel more threatned,woke up at at 10+ and went to expo soon after,there were so many cars,the models were beautiful,though you look tons better,i saw a full blond version of you too,real hot,i wasnt concentrating the whole time,i didnt know what i was expecting also.i just feel so lousy,douche bag doodle sent me a video,its damn sad,and its in my friendster acc.and his getting his pay,hope we can do something,i think hell be a good father,his money planning seems good,but i want to be the best husband ever,sorry icant concentrate...so many htings just is nappening,i was so frustrated at cote d azur,that i went to parkway,i like walking alone,but i would love if you were here too.i went popular,and they had so little magazines,then i went to grammaphone,so many dvds i want,so many cds i want,but i know i wont listen or watch them,i need motivation,it feels like that time of the year again,but i wont die,love keeps me alive,name told me to get the RG321 today,if its months back ill prolly have bought it,because its so sharp,but now ive learned something called the floyd rose,so i need that now,and he told me about tremol no,which save the guitar,with that i wont have to change a guitar if the string breaks,because of the floyd rose,but hes in viet,so i dont know,anyway i dont have 400$ and this morning my dad asked me what i want for my birthday,i said i dont know,he asked,a guitar,then i said i dont know,he said i shpuld get i better one,then i said i can use mine for around a year more,then he said what guitar am i interested in,i said sheter,then again-mei you ting guo leh-dammit,he should go out with me next time,he said the word budget,then i forgot everyhting else,why didnt i tell him,all iwant is you?fuck my mind,i dont know why,whats happening,i think if i tell the nette ill feel better,im so lazy to bathe,when was the l;ast time a bathed?yeaterday?dman,theres royale rumble today,too bad its on demand tv,serousi shit