girls i like will wear off

but the girl i love wont

i think i got around two weeks left in skool and i wont get ter see you anymore.maybe you would go australia next year and does it end just like this?i wish we can spend more time to gether

thanks for enlightening me mr gauge i feel much better already.now i just want to spend my life with my dearest veri

your feelings might be fading but mines stronger than ever

with my new tb sticks i will protect you till i die

its sucks when your dearest wont believe you when ure telling the truth

the lonely walk
the tall grass
the stone kicking
the bricks packed
the love lost
the cathedral
the hey oh
the hi jasper
the hellraiser C-1 FR
the sins piled to the sky
the multiple blisters
the tied up hair
the new travis barker sticks
the faster fingers
youre the dwelling place for demons
the cage for every unclean spirit
every filthy bird that makes us drink the
poison wine to fornicating with our kings

i dont need anything except you,because you are my everything

all i want now is to clear the mess

damn its 23.12 now and i still cant get to sleep.i remeber on 6 july it was raining and we couldnt have pe.and mr koh was telling us that tears when crying contains toxins which increases the risks of getting cancer and after he said it ,i was thinking that if we could live happily ever after we would be really healthy since we got some naughty thoughts up our sleeves and since you take lots of vitamin pils.i wish to stop tearing but i cant.i remeber i watched a video called seize the day on you tube.it somehow went with the ssadness though i didn't know why.today in the afternoon i had the super throbbing headache just before drum class,and i was wondering why didnt you reply my message?were you too sad to reply?too confused?and there are still messages like going to the library to study going to my house in september to watch tv nd meeting your parents for dinner ,all seemed so real then.but now?i remeber telling you ,if we believe we can do it.can we get married?i believed we could.but now its not up to just me to decide its for my hopefully future wife .many things in life are hard to overcome but we must be strong ourselves to do it.its hard for you to believe that i trully love you but do you feel it with your heart?can you feel it?someone said 'love is blind'until now i still dont know what it means.but to me love is strong and love is unrelentless ,it can give people the best days of their lives and can let a person be filled with sorrow .you even asked me once if i would take care of you if you were drunk,the answer was obvious.but you might not even believe these words.why not?a person is full of lies more lies than a factory manufacturing poker cards.a person definitely lies .but for what cause?i dont know also.have i lied to you?im sure not.and like you said you dont know what to believe anymore because this piece of paper might just be more lies from me.lies that will never stop?like one mistake leading to another?im sure not.i got a good traight mind of my own to use.why would i do this?i wonder what would it be like to be just friends like our first day today.i admit,i dosent feel good.quite worrying.would we lose interest and trust in each other?i hope not.there were many things you said that left me thinking abot alot.i wonder if they have sorted or simplified but i lost them in my mind all i can think of is you.will you be sleeping now?thinking about the world cup?still feeling confused?or already made up ur mind and feeling * ?i realised the older i get the less i cry?but what about now?goodnight sweetest.23.48 and loving you as much
j;love