prat 2

this must be the hardest of all posts because i might lose what i have accomplished with mum i hope mummy understands

i cant keep it anymore

but i delayed this for so long i quite forgotten what to type

dont blame me for my slow typing some curly dick knocked my phone out of my hands and kicked it at orchard.

the cover half came oout the nav keys aint working properly

mummy:

if you study so hard please take care of ur brains

im the best?

im retarded?

watch less dvds study less eat less msg me more!

the first lady:

31 oct 06 11.29

you feel wtf right?

thats how i felt for the past months

i hope you understand but i dont think you ever will

you dont seem to like replying

its like a cahnce of a shooting star?

well even you say friends i think its more complicated than that

main thing is i dont feel like one

why?

i owe you a postcard and a letter

i thought i could love you forever but its impossible

if we were still communicating normally its possible

but we dont

and i dont want to drag this anymore

its going to kill me even before jealousy does

especially when that douchebag is alive

i honestly hate him

and i dont give a meat whatever reson he gives

its ok

i never wanted to be say all these

but i dont want to die without saying it

at least some human will know

wel if hes so good let him be ur douche bag hell love it

i really wonder do you treat all ur bfs like this

or is this just urself

i really dont want to say this

but if you dont know what im thinking

you might die single

well thats what im hoping but ure a waste to die like this

so good luck

the past

finnally you are willing to meet me.after knowing you i realised love is not just about me.i learnt that i have to think about ur feelings too.no one can make me smile like you can cry like you can,i felt that you are the one and only thats why im determinned to mend my ways.

sometimes i think when will be the day we can smile and think back about these days with our grandchildren running around.anw exams are coming and me might even be seperated so i wish we could we would always me together.i wonder if i told you my grandparents werent allowed to get married but my grandmuzzer ran away from home to get married i think.if this need to happen i will proudly say for you i will.anw we can look forward to ur phototaking session :)

to dearest verillyn 10.32

20 aug 2006

well thats history

i never got my promise

and i never got to deliver this

maybe when i was dreaming you were supporting by playing along

thanks alot

(postcard)

(letter)

veril my dearest i don't know how to start

25aug06 07:06-oh sry forgot.heh.gdmrning!

(i was smilling)

25aug06 07:10-sure cya den (:

(still smilling)

25aug06 07:11-nt in sch yet.

(smilling...)

25aug06 07:13-reaching sch .where're u?

(i love ur concern)

25aug06 07:20-im gg in

((:)

25aug06 08:15-tks for e candy btw.ya 2 tests.u?

(still cool)

25aug06 08:21-next period and after recess dno when

-no reply-

25aug06 16:04-ure an ass

(??)

25aug06 16:07-i bet u had a great time taking -

(quite sad)

25aug06 16:16-whatever.i cant be bothered to tellanyone

(sad)

25aug06 21:40-u knw what,i guess i cant kp my promise,i dun tink i can survive anymre surprises.anw study hard.gdnite

(devestated)

25aug06 21:46-smtimes i seriously dno if ure playing dumb but forget it im done wit dis.dun bother waiting for my replies in future.cos i wont.

(im so sad,i smilled)

31aug06 18:06-if u get to sec 5,i would .n happytxhers days too.ok switch off ur phobne and study hard.

(surprised,mystyfied)

31aug06 18:08-dun wry.i wont anymore.

(shit)

31aug06 21:33-hey.sorry if-said anyth bad or whatever.he dosen't understand the situation well enough but anyway i just felt that i had to apologise.goodnight

(somethings wrong.i just know)

31aug06 21:35-nvm.i was talking nonsense

(you really need me)

01sep06 14:13-nths wrng.n dun msg alrdy.

(back to normal)

01sep06 22:58-no its nth like the bands u listen to.anw sleepsoon goodnight

(i need you)

now i want to explain that what happened was i took pics of her,put them on friendster ,was guilty because,i took the pics without pemission and used my hp in class.but i dont know how or why you said i took upskirt pics of her which i really didnt.this was why i got the strokes i also agree i dont deserve it but nvm.i just hope you would believe me.you were happy,everythingds fine until you heard this,to me its a misunderstanding,but to you i dont know.im telling you the truth,what must i do to make you believe?you want to see the statement?i jsut want to clear this mess,but will you talk?am i a pain in ur ass?now that ive written theis letr i just hope you believe me.and dont forget.